my second home.

holy wow. i havent done this for awhile.
BUT i have been posting something everyday..ON.....drum roll please....
www.livejournal.com/users/msbethanyjean/ i hope i got that right..jasmine?
im throwing this out there not really wanting to because it started as something for myself to do..to keep me remembering my life..to discipline myself to write everyday...to vent maybe. so my apologies if its the truth of my day. i write whats on my heart. a tablet if you will.
im not common to the notion of opening cans of worms. but if you're hungry you'll be fed well.
enjoy. comment. add to your favorites. join. read and read again. or never go to ever.
whatever comes natural..
love x life.
bethanyjean.

every peasant..still a princess.

the latest was to be continued..so ill hit you up from there..im working to beautify the world..to bring out the soul thats captured inside and make it explode from the roots to the very end of each strand..i was told i am annointed as a hair stylist..and im destined to live it out..hear we go..bring it on..ill knock em..sock em..kick them up..and drop em..yeah something like that..so in this transformation..i've become business..my style is going from moth to monarch..and im soaring..its good to feel like you look impressive..i read the other day that us girlies are princess' of God..i've known this before..but it brought out knew meaning as i read on..how does a princess act? i'm pretty sure she's never seen a ragid day..or worn shreads in her life..she acts with class..walks in confidence..and knows her destiny..she's loyal and truely shines in her reign..so a princess..cool..how amazing it is to know that God places us in such a high level..and it just depends on whether we except it nobley or not..i'm not about to go buy the pink..sport a tiara..and wear the clothes sparkled with princess from ever thread..but i vow to live out royalty in a matter that glorifies Him and gives reference to His kingdom..ultimitely knowing Him as greater..amen..i bid you fair well.. goodnight.

oh no she didnt.

the first thought that struck my mind as i began this blog tonight was to tell you more of me. things that you've maybe never known before or maybe you have but are yet to be reminded. if the repetitiveness starts killing you know where the X is at the corner of your screen. i am a christian but some times would rather just be called a growing disciple of God..or perhaps just a person who loves God..who has a relationship with Him and longs to see Him glorified in the hearts of many.. i play the game of poker..oh yeah baby i love me a little texas hold 'em..i play every tuesday night and occasionally on sundays...mark has me started..and tonight i beat him..we both are proud...ego check please..i have a brother and two sisters..i love them dearly..i used to have a goldfish named gwen..she lived for over 2 years..good for a goldfish i'd say...later i had an angel fish named reuben..and a little striped fish..well named strype..they died whilst i was living in australia...my best friend sarah and i used to video tape them whilst making voices for them in the background...whilst everyone is getting wasted we make home videos..i like the word whilst. i love to educate myself in the lifestyles of musicians..mostly ones back in the day..and the holocaust..or more so the psychology of hitler interests me...no worries..i have a heart for jews..i am part jewish myself..and history intrigues me. i look at peoples shoes generally before i greet their face..i truely believe you can tell a persons character by their shoes..i have never had an instance where ive been wrong..maybe you can challenge me on that one (??) i like being up late..but as i get older im reminded its not as easy as 'all nighters' used to be..mornings and i have never gotten along.. i dont really care for candy. i like chocolate if anything. i'd rather have ice cream or cheesecake. i am neither a dog nor a cat person. i find them too often to be dirty and smelly. i would like to have compassion for them but i sadly and rarely find it in myself. fish work well for me. i am a mad music lover..i crave new albums..songs..artists.. it truely is a hobby more than anything..although at times..it may seem more..i went to school to be a hair stylist at the aveda institute..and ill leave it there..where ill pick it up next time..

im not dead

myspace made me leave my blog..but procrastination kept me away..taking my potential with it..hey all im taking action..to be a disciple is to be disciplined..the anthem to true life..no matter the heartache..no matter the streign..strong i will be in the end...i'm shooting to be one of the 12...a beacon of light that peirces a blindmans eye to burn..to God be the glory..
[jas my eyes teared as i turned the pages of the amazing gift of a journal: thank you]
ya'll can look for me again in a couple days.

tsunami overload

so i know how everyone's sick of hearing about the tragedy..but face the facts it stinkin sucks for those poor people..so instead of getting depressed watching it on the news..lets do something about it..or help someone who's already started in the process..caribou..my place of slavery..ha. kidding...is brewing sumatra and only that on january 26th..and for each bag of sumatra beans..or cup of sumatra you buy..their donating a $1 towards coffee kids..who will in turn give the money to the tsunami victims..so come in and say hi to me..or just come in and ignore me..either way you'll help a worthy cause.. www.coffeekids.com ...cheers

music summer of service

i think im turning european

so a little over a month ago i was asked by a friend from australia..rebecca..who was in the dts after me..to go on a trip to europe...after stressing myself..praying..and questioning..and thinking..and pacing..and so on.......i decided to go..so mid july through mid aug..6 weeks..ill be traveling europe (spain..italy..france..germany..czech republic..belgium..and the freakin netherlands) going to music festivals..serving the band we'll be with..and telling people about biggy G...i'm pretty stoked..its gonna be off the hizook...i'm on staff for it along with three others..and we'll be leading a team..the plan for the trip is to pioneer a music and arts ministry for the ywam dunham base out of quebec..yep i've never done any of that before..but i'm up for the challenge..the only thing is the challenge up for me? hey? ..please keep me in your prayers..and if you want any info..hit me hit me..

missing it already

hard rock cafe'

me and anna

me jeremy and anthony at epcot 

st.augustine fort  

anthony..jeremy..and i on the tram at disney world 

friends on the other side

i spent a week and a half in florida visiting friends from oz...most of the time i was with jeremy and his parents..ruth and darryl..who were on holiday there from alaska..anthony came later and anna dropped by for a day...it was so good to see them and catch up on old newy times...they are all such amazing people and if i could keep them nearer to me for life..i'd be one happy girl...yep..i love them...they're great..it was fun not working..sleeping in..and being a tourist for awhile..we spent a couple days until new years in jacksonville..went to see meet the fockers...toured a brewery..tasted beer and had some fancy food..walked by the water and over a lighted bridge at night..saw the super bowl stadium..went to the beach one day...new years eve was nice...'so this is the new year and i dont feel any different'..thank you death cab but they got it right it seems to always end up a little overrated...drove to st. augustine..and walked around an old fort...made fun of some people telling us how to load a gun..st. augustine was so european..i loved it..it was beautiful..new years day we drove to orlando..tourist haven..there was heaps to do..one night we went to a mystery dinner theatre..the cop at the end was the best..with his short shorts..and gilligan shoes..sportin a mullet and a handle bar mustache...'shud up' hahaha..i laughed so hard...we practiced our mini golfing skills..and played uno and phaze ten for hours which seems like days..which felt more like months...or possibly years...seriously..dont buy spongebob uno..you will never see the end of the game..or your children grow up...did some flea market shopping..jeremy bought western style belt buckels that kill..im jealous..went shopping at a couple malls too...tried indian food..loved it..picked up anthony on the 4th..jeremy and i went in to get him at the airport and we couldn't find him anywhere and it was taking forever..so we just went up and down the same escalator probably close to a couple hundred times..we finally just sat at the top of them and waited for him..after he called we wouldn't tell him where we were..oh yeah by the way..this does get better..im just leading up to it not just rambling...and so we kept pointing out people we thought couple be him..since we hadn't seen him for awhile..he could have been a short white scandenavian by now for all we know..(he's a tall mexican) ..and so once we saw him we followed behind him..and down the escalator..hiding behind the people in front of us..til we got to this pole that we could hide behind...totally 007 ..and we stood behind it and laughed like little kids..and then jeremy and i both yelled his name a couple of times..and he kept looking around..haha..finally he saw us..it was fun..well for us...we went to disney world..a first timer for me..i was sick for most of the time so i didn't do much at disney but my favorite was probably epcot and the fireworks show there..even though they ended it celin dion style...which maybe if i was with my kids and just spent half of my life savings going to each theme park..after i had just been divorced and my current boyfriend left me at epcot while he was lost somewhere in margaritaville..living it up with some random chic with less baggage than i..and missed each fast pass time for each ride because my daughter keep screaming..and wetting herself each time we got in line..then i would have probably shed a tear or two..maybe..we went to the animal kingdom..mgm studios..and universal too...went back to universal one night to see the vandals and the adolescents play at the hard rock cafe..the show started out a little small....but the venue was amazing..we stood at the front of the stage..and i found myself feeling like i was in high school again..ahh thee good old times of being a rebellious..anti everything..i hate the world and everyone in it...little pissed off bitter girl who listens to punk and only punk...glad i can laugh at that now..yeah and before the show jeremy and anthony kept daring me..so i decided to go for it..shoot no one gives up a dare unless you're a complete wuss..so i went up to this guy and told him i was checking for weapons and needed to pat him down..he wasn't sure if i was security but he let me do it any way ...so i just went at it..and began patting him down..then when i got to his arms i said 'what about these guns' haha..i felt like an idiot but it was a riot to see the expression on the guys face..it was a good laugh..and he totally was a good sport and thought it was pretty funny himself...i saw him later and he was pretty proud of his 'weapons' ha...good times..anna came the day before i left..and we went shopping..out to eat..and to best buy..bought some good good cds...yep and then she pretty much left..it was good to see her and hang out for a bit..but we all wished it would have been for longer..jeremy and anthony went to the jimmy eat world show the night i left...haha..there's another story..but my lips are sealed...it was an amazing time..and i left some pics for everyone to see..so enjoy!

the letkemans

bekah (jigga) and wes..the newlyweds..look for their upcoming mtv show..psh.. came down from canada for christmas..and because of our busy schedules and me leaving for florida i only saw them this one night for dinner..we had a good time as we always do..but i miss them so much..love you guys..hope to see you soon..by the way..is wes' glove shooting him in the head? that totally wasn't planned..UNLESS..wes' extremely wait no bekah's extremely long arm is wrapped around the booth planning for the kill...shoot..i mean dang..look out for jig the bandit..

with his monosynth..

his name is ronnie and he plays a hot pink hot synthesizer that wraps around his hot..................................................saw joy electric last night at the venue i volunteer at along with a band i didnt like..and the moecity paper dolls..for all you fans of children 18:3 check em out..the singer and chic bassist is in this one..sound a little different though...felt like i was in the 80's when j.e. played..apparently so did others..the dancing was out of control..saw my friend stevo..and BEN..and stevo tried bumping and grinding..i pushed him away..all in good fun of course...

isn't he sweet 

jack attack 

olivia

olivia..or livi she always comes into the shop to get smoothies with her mom..suzie..who works with me..i went to their house the other day..and she had a surprise for me..right away..some candy and a candy corn eraser..good thing i didn't go trick or treating..she had me set..

mi casa. tu casa.

this is my lil apartment or flat..its quant..we like it..

leeeahh..

leah my roomate..she works with me too now..we have the same life..its true..we spend a lot of time together..i love her though...its crazy how we went from not knowing each other at all..to doing everything together...well not everything..she tries to get me to play sims and long hours of nintendo..i'm not a fan

troll's making coffee?

briana..troll..she's great..she's moved to minneapolis to go to the aveda institute..and now works with me...my fellow wisconsiness

this is the coat hanger i made for our apartment..the one i have to replicate for my land lord..if your wondering what schonheit is..its beauty in german..

this is one of the paintings i made to hang in the living room of our apartment..

paint by numbers

lately i've had a few different responses from the artwork people have seen of mine...it's pretty flattering and has surprised me actually..mainly because it's just what i do on the side when i have time...which doesn't happen very often..a guy from steiger..phil..asked me a few weeks ago to paint backgrounds for his marienette show...i was a bit unsure at the time..but i said i'd do it any way....this past weekend i thought i'd get a jump at it...and so i went to the art store and purchased paints..brushes..and other mediums to do more projects...i finished this week..i gave the canvases back to him last night...and he was stoked...i'm real excited about being part of his show...he just started..hasn't even done a show..and people are asking him to do parties...he's got this sick idea to get an old ice cream truck and do shows in the back..let me try to visualize it for you...so he's du du du driving around with the dink dink dink dink music going on and he slides up next to the sidewalk..kids are running around and chanting phil's here...they yell for their friends to come..and they all gather for the best marienette show of their lifetime..he pulls out his old suitcase trunk..and quickly sets it up..phil gives them a wonder of a performance..and they applaud..jumping around with joy..as they ask for another story..phil interrupts..drags out his accordian..and they begin to sing jesus loves me...later they enjoy ice cream..and he spits off to the next neighborhood...cool hey? another project i have going is for my friend anthony..he's started a clothing company for his cousin..and he's asked me to design a few girls t-shirts..i haven't quite started yet..i sketched a bit for it one night..but never went any farther...my landlord has me painting a design on a coat rack to hang on her wall..i painted one for our apartment...and since then she's been buggin me to make one for her...haven't started yet...
a lady at work wants me to paint a peice to hang on her wall...and i have yet to paint more to fill the walls of our apartment...i think its a handful indeed...but i'm thankful and blessed...i really love doing it....if only i could figure out the time bit...

cool hand luke/aireline show

i volunteer at a christian venue in downtown minneapolis in the record shop..and last night cool hand luke and aireline played..all i can say is beautiful...i've never heard aireline..but they reminded me a lot of coldplay..which i love...a lot of creativity went down...christmas bells...playing electric with a violin bow...and various plays on sounds..and that was just aireline..cool hand luke started with the singer playing drums while singin..heaps of switching of instruments from person to person...it was a great...if you like good music and haven't had the chance to check either of these bands out..do so...but heads up 7-up..its all pretty mellow..

florida+friends= FLORIENDAS 2005!

so i'm thrilled..excited..stoked..exstatic...pumped...jazzed...and peeing myself happy..because dec 29th through jan 8th ill be visiting friends in florida...anna..jeremy..and anthony...my laundry room comrades from australia....its gonna be a riot..i can't wait...i love them (arms stretched out) thiiiis much...and though my arms aren't long..that's a whole lotta lovin going down...florienda 2005 here we come! woo!

do you taste what im sippin?

just thought i'd let everyone know that the coffee shop i work at..caribou..according to consumer reports has ranked #1..nationally..for the best tasting coffee..not bad for a minnesota born company..oh and starbucks got #11..with burnt written next to it..yikes..so next time you grab a cup'a..stop by 46th and nicollet..say hi to the barista queen..and get the best of the best..

matt..my dad..and rusty..my brother's battle buddy..in mississippi at the base....looks like their having a good time..two thumbs up..

dad matt and mom with matt at the military base in mississippi

the fam again at the airport gate

here's the fam at the mall of america before matt flew out..

welcome home cheers to leaving home tears

the time has come..too soon..and we had to say good bye to matt...again..its always hard..we've had to do it a number of times now..with different bases..countries..and training he's left for...this time for two years..and war...it brings me to tears now thinking about it...i love him to peices...so at the airport we were able to go to his gate..apparently the airline gives passes to families who's loved ones are going to war..which i thought was way awesome...we stayed up until an hour before he left...ahh i hate goodbyes....so ok..i was supposed to go to church that night and decided i'd probably be late for it..so i stayed home...about an hour later matt called and it turned out him and his battle buddy missed their plane..i laughed..and then asked if he was serious..he was..i laughed again..so i went..picked him up...laughed a third time..then brought him to a friends to stay the night...again i had to say goodbye..just after i had finished wiping my tears before he called..at least i got to see him again...they ended up catching a flight the next morning..it made for a funny story i thought...something to tell the grandkids...alright so beyond the hurt from love i feel for him...we need to do our part over here..so it would be cool if you kept him and his battallion in your prayers...and kept praying for your country..this world..and the war...

so this is christmas?

sunday we celebrated like no other...well sort of...my brother is leaving for iraq and he'll be there for a term of at least 2 years...my mom..sweet as she is...wanted to bless him before he left..so we had thanksgiving..christmas..and his birthday..all in one day...she didn't want him to miss out on anything...so here's how it worked..we all went to church..becki..sarah olson..sarah fiedler..and i performed for offering...my pastor prayed over matt...we got back home..my g-rents and immediate family had thanksgiving dinner..mmm...about an hour later we went out to the garage and had cake and ice cream for matt's birthday..it was an open house so heaps of people came to say hey...after awhile we all went outside and prayed at the flagpole over matt...later that afternoon we had christmas dinner...it wasn't a full on christmas dinner..considering we had a huge meal earlier..but it was still really good...matt opened presents for christmas..and my grandpa..the man...gave matt his old compass that he's had for years..it was beautiful...my g-pa hasn't been doing very well lately...its sad...please keep him in your prayers..he's a cool guy...any way it was a tear jerker for sure...all through the day..with his birthday and christmas..people gave donations that he could put towards a computer so he can email us while he's there...it was really cool to see so many people give...and he was able to get one..so that's awesome..all in all it was a fun day...my mom did an awesome job making all the food...entertaining..and staying remotely sane..

shout outs

com-ment n. A statement of criticism , analysis, or observation

...yikes..be nice to me please..
if you wanna 'comment'...click on 'comments' (underlined) underneath the entry you're proposing to torment with truth..and then click on..post a 'comment'..if you're a member sign your pretty self in..if not..hit post anonymously..spill your guts..and then click..publish 'comment'..and leave the tears and vulnerability to me...

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here's the proof greg...population 1,051 

well..for all of those who like to make fun..this is my little ole' home town of clear lake..down town..at the 4 corners stop..because we don't have stop lights..so go ahead..laugh it up..